This drawn and textile installation is a tactile, self-portrait focused on the overwhelming isolation, numbness and psychological pain that comes with living as a racialized individual with multiple comorbid mental illnesses. The cloak employs meticulous and time-laborious embroidery techniques that capture my recurring harmful thoughts and the most common sentences I found repeated in my journal writings. The title was taken from one of these writings. The lining of the cloak is sewn out of multiple layers of transparent fabric, which I printed with drawings of precious items of comfort. The audio component mimics the cyclical, disorienting and droning nature of the negative dialogues we have with internal ourselves.